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Read eBook Ú My Dark Vanessa Paperback ´ Kate Elizabeth Russell à Exploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naïve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher a brilliant all consuming read that marks the explosive debut of an extraordinary new writer2000 My Dark Vanessa juxtaposes memory and trauma with the breathless excitement of a teenage girl discovering the power her own body can wield Thought provoking and impossible to put down this is a masterful portrayal of troubled adolescence and its repercussions that raises vital uestions about agency consent complicity and victimhood Written with the haunting intimacy of The Girls and the creeping intensity of Room My Dark Vanessa is an era defining novel that brilliantly captures and reflects the shifting cultural s transforming our relationships and society itse My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell is a 2020 William Morrow publication A powerful novel and one of the most disturbing books I’ve ever read Before reading this review be aware I made up my mind about any gray areas concerning consent this novel addresses For me there are no gray areas Fifteen year old girl forty two year old man and a figure of authority? Please This is a strongly worded review and may step on some toes I hope you'll stick with me though I understand this book has bothered some people understandably and some are conflicted about it I am not conflicted AT ALL and my review will reflect that You'll need to take your heart off your sleeve if you wish to continue reading By now we’ve all heard the stories and have seen male and female teachers arrested for abusing their positions and embarking on inappropriate relationships with their students I could tell you stories about things that happened way back when I was in high school and things that happened at my children’s high school where teachers crossed lines with their students It is widely reported now almost to the point where it seems commonplaceWhile we often get caught up in the feeling of betrayal we have which is caused by someone we trusted to uphold our values to be a mentor to our kids by setting an example and of course by obeying the law we overlook the long lasting ramifications for those who were seduced often with careful manipulation by these men and women we have entrusted our children to gradually luring in the most vulnerable with their attentiveness and flattery This book explores the psychological damage and the cruel emotional trauma left on one young victim Vanessa Wye who at fifteen was seduced by Jacob Strane a forty two year old teacher at her school These emotional scars never fully healed continuously reopened constantly bleeding and infecting this young woman who simply could not move forward and live up to her full potential nor could she maintain friendships or a normal relationship with another man and simply could not admit to what is so obvious to others Because even if I sometimes use the word abuse to describe certain things that were done to me in someone else's mouth the word turns ugly and absoluteIt swallows me and all the times I wanted it begged for itJacob Strane is vile Period His kind are far too common and often infiltrate places where they have easy access to those they wish to lure into their web of seduction What many fail to understand is that although young people today are far knowledgeable mature much faster and are exposed to erotic images and information daily they put on a brave face never admitting they might not have everything under control They are perhaps much desensitized and jaded seemingly confident and comfortable with the onslaught of information that surrounds them Don’t let them fool you They are as vulnerable sensitive confused and insecure as ever They cope with incredible pressure to conform be accepted and to do things they are emotionally unprepared for They are just as capable of falling under the spell of someone older seemingly sophisticated someone they admire or look up to whose attention is flattering and alluring as innocent generations before them It can be uite heady and intense making it hard for them to fully understand that they are indeed the victim in all this Vanessa who is often paralleled with Lolita or in some cases it might be a juxtaposition falls straight into Jacob’s trap as we helplessly stand by and watch It’s a struggle to see her life spiral out of control and resign herself to a life of dark obsession and living well below her intellectual means The psychological damage Vanessa endures is the reason I gave this book five stars I know the book will be controversial I know it is not for everyone It will generate heaven only knows what kind of reaction once it hits bookstores but I think it is an important examination even if it is a work of fiction It’s a portrayal we should welcome as it proves many points women have been trying to stress for ages Crawling inside the mind of a predator is not easy it’s not supposed to be This book is not one you ‘enjoy’ It’s a book that should make one feel extremely uncomfortable one that makes you suirm in your seat It is supposed to have that type of deep effect on you In fact it took me a very long time to read this novel because I had to take freuent breaks from it When you enter Vanessa’s world you will be transported into a deep dark twisted place and you will long to escape from it But remember there are many many many real life ‘Vanessa’s’ out there They too long to escape from it only for them it’s not a book they can put down at any time and simply walk away from it because it was just too upsetting Overall this book is just downright chilling and left me feeling shaken and very emotional While it is not an easy novel it is one I recommend reading if you can It is very thought provoking and I can see it bringing out some pretty intense discussions for book clubs Vanessa’s portrait is utterly heartbreaking Her view of the situation again too common She put everything on herself and our society continues to enable that feeling of shame and guilt and even goes so far as to threaten and warn off anyone who might think of doing otherwise As others have pointed out this book shows why recent movements like #MeToo resonated with so many people and is another reason why I feel it is a worthy five star bookContent warningShouldn’t need to even say it but if you have certain triggers this is NOT the book for you I’ve written and re written this review many times and have toned down my frustrations knowing my words might offend some But please please please if you suspect a situation is not appropriate under any circumstances with your child sibling friend or colleague don’t hesitate to listen to hear them to intervene or report your concerns to those who have the authority to do so or encourage them to come forward or seek help The details may be upsetting to hear but your courage just might save someone you love from becoming another ‘Vanessa’

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Nt who reaches out to Vanessa and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible choice remain silent firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship or redefine herself and the events of her past But how can Vanessa reject her first love the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life? Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager and who professed to worship only her may be far different from what she has always believed?Alternating between Vanessa’s present and her past Tragic dark repulsive and infuriating this book dives deep into the complexities of abusive relationships grooming and trauma There are complicated layers that I think the author does well in putting together the timely pop culture references to show how pervasive the culture of sexualizing young girls is; the side characters that add to the complicity of fostering that culture; the way the #MeToo movement gets co opted by journalism and clickbait; how victimhood is encouraged and hailed automatically for women; the way we minimize trauma in order to cope with it; etc So many of the elements in this story come from a real place and its character study is handled realistically What encouraged me to bump my rating to 5 stars ultimately is the ending and its realism in uietly and slowly learning how to piece yourself back together

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My Dark VanessaExploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naïve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher a brilliant all consuming read that marks the explosive debut of an extraordinary new writer2000 Bright ambitious and yearning for adulthood fifteen year old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane her magnetic and guileful forty two year old English teacher2017 Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men a reckoning is coming due Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former stude Truth I started this book so many times and after few pages I felt suffocated my stomach churned sharp pain twisted my heart and I dropped it This happened several times and I tried to gather my wits wear my big girl’s pants and breathe in breathe out several times deeply And I started again This is most disturbing painful heart bleeding psychologically consuming complex soul crushing life changing story I’ve been lately read It’s harsh raw realistic provocative brave dark bleak terrifying The words like glass pieces cut through your mind and you don’t drop tears for Vanessa you just bleed out as like she does mentally throughout her journeyWhen she was only 15 Vanessa meets Jacob Strane 44 years teacher at Browick School in Norumbega Maine in 2000 Jacob was cunny man who knew exactly what he was getting himself into Vanessa felt special uniue free and braver with him But that was not true and she knows it She was a prey manipulated deceived raped brainwashed Jacob was evil smart insisting they were soul mates feeding her with literature masterpieces from Sylvia Plath to Emily Dickinson Edna St Vincent He was vile he was the predator and there was nothing about love passion about his motives He just took took and took till there was nothing left from Vanessa’s pure soul I know most of the teenagers aware about their sexual awakenings in younger ages They may reach anything even the graphic and erotic images from websites reading articles experiencing so many things They might be wiser from our younger versions thanks to website online and school educations and the parents’ open minded friendly approaches and communicative ways But that doesn’t mean they’re not innocent naïve and they are vulnerable They can still easily hurt And the emotional sharp scars they carry always stay in their hearts throughout their life journey From moving back and forth between 2000 and 2017 for understanding what kind of tremendous damage he created at Vanessa’s bleeding soul crying heart and unbalanced mental moods She told us her heartbreaking dark journey from a dark twisted tarnished exhausted mental state At 2017 Vanessa stuck with her dead end day time job getting therapy sessions for the grief after she lost her father She meets Jacob at a coffee shop and she realizes she feels the same about him after 17 years But Jacob has secret agenda to engage with her There is a misconduct case against him about sexual abusing his former student All the details posted on Facebook Did he do that? But Vanessa thought she was special She was the only one What a minute Was she also abused? Did he use her for his own sexual benefits? Wasn’t their relationship special or did they ever have a real relationship? What if you know anything about love consists of twisted abuse manipulation and dirty lies? How Vanessa move on her life? How can she form a real normal bounding with other human being? How can she learn to trust any other people when the person she most loved is a shameless liar? I couldn’t stop breathing even though the words cut my heart into tiny pieces and crushes my mind with sledgehammer I hurt I ached I cursed I punched the wall I screamed But sigh sigh sigh I love this book I truly love it It’s than five starred reading but it’s not for everyone It will take at least one week to gather myself I’m overwhelmed I’m so tired This book shattered me I think I stop everything resume sitting on the floor giving blank looks for days Oh Kate Elizabeth Russell you ruined me for other booksbloginstagramfacebooktwitter